Dying Creativity

Oh, nail it in my ears

yeah, fake the need to scream

just like they do.

submission shows with your neck bent

and eyes red.

twisted bodies chipping shoulders

reveal the bleeding hearts.

bright lights bouncing off

silhouette movement

optical illusion in this fluttering cycle.

rhythm inside these black walls

about to break free.

were up against them all.

while you sing it to me.

Will you scream it for me?

every hand

with every black X

marked for the intent

point, push, dance.

Punishing the lips that move

the moments

will run it’s course.

and will run it through this mind

til were dead.

And everything fell through

when discrepancy was tossed around in this bed

while you fought with yourself

over the life that you had.

its a shame really

living in pieces

and the sound only makes it worse.

Shattering every verse.

fingers

tangled in your hair

while you

quietly accede this nonsense.

and the pain that he feels

as he turns to face mine

he knows it runs through thin blood

flowing easily.

you’ll do just find if you can hold your breath

and you’ll live long if you can

save the rest.

a message to the soul
and coiled thoughts are
choking me now.
Lord, what would you want from me now?
embraced the truth this morning,
but what would you have this poor girl do?
free,
or almost.
i still don’t know what to do
or what to say
it’s just empty words
on the page
and i know this soul yearns for you.
but i don’t have the strength to stand
with out collapsing.
and
asking you
seems like a mighty mountain.

feel me from inside.
i can taste it
i am losing.
but i know what is right.
an impasse unchanging
and fore standing.
a longing wide open
will you let me in?
patterns on
material bounded designs
and shapes i can’t withstand
are hiding the face
you will never understand.
unfold this mind
a feeble trend
and the pictures keep repeating.
the figure
undone
and undid this foundation
following the contour lines.
pieces falling and keep falling
and i fell in between.
i find myself still reaching for you
muscles over bones
extending
father and father
until the thread breaks.
and my response
still with my eyes,
frail as glass
looking out
from inside.

make it in the morning..
when sleep fails you.
don’t you just
want to run it down these streets?
we could do this all day
in bare feet.

i could scream the words
better than
your hostile pain.
believe it
these vocal strings
get played.
strum it.
fall down.
can you feel it now?

and as long as your
still swimming in your sheets
i can hear my breath again.

comfort in the reprimand.
to expel the shock.

just as the
swollen hearts are saved
and the line gets written.
how we just take steps
to talk ourselves out of bruises.

im on a mission
to find myself
written on a good note.
repel the need.
guess your wondering when the angel
sinks.

we sleep on pillows make of
silk
and laced with tears.

her hope
the soul
of her whim.
scales falling off the eyes
of blind insight.
nothing inside me
is strong enough
to stop it.
nothing she says
will tell me to fight this.
were living
off of a blank mind set.
staring into
candle light.
and the sterling face.
but she
had the glass heels.
or just the will
to be a made up fantasy.
and in the stealthy air
are strangers that speak to me
drinking their fill
of my worried mind.
cutting across
sober weakness.
throwing the glass to the ground.
laying in shattered fragments.
and the ones closest
will never know.
the sweet dead roses
hanging on the walls
or just the wrong side of things.
objects lying
out of place
a scattered simplicity.
so i saw
you begging your dreams
like they owed you the memories
ones foreshadowed.
i really don’t mind
the eye lids closing
what would they want me to see.
the out door playground.
at night.
the sequence of star light.
and the man behind the corner
giving a sinister glare.
so rumor is..
were climbing thin walls
and now its one less ladder to reach.
with nothing up your sleeve
takes one pawn.
to win your king.

your lips
so
passionate in your bravery
to kiss mine.
you said
im not afraid to love
until it scared you silly
i suppose
its only in the moment
that we learn to sin
and sink.
just a bomb shell
in your throat
causing you
to eat those words.
our yearning
and the bitter taste
of surviving.
and we
run our hands
through decisions.
and still
you can’t make up your mind about me
an ill thought.
but it drives me crazy
so ill just simmer down
til it seeps in.

and love was just yesterdays mess..

you wear resentment like a chain around your neck

the latest trend for today.

and you rock it quite well

please, don’t let my heart get in the way.

here you are

lying with your lips

and sulking at the words.

crimson wine,

you would spill the need

with the stains left behind

exposed to shallow eyes.

and you wonder why your

plans were turned around.

its just the mirror

you look into that

makes

up seem

down.

i admire

your twisted perception.

really,

it burns quite well

healing wounds into

perfection.

so you say

i wish i could heal faster.

those words in bold in my head.

i heard the doorbell curse

when you stood outside

intentions guarded.

its going to be a long day.

and so,

your face fell

with your pride.

damn it.
once more.
you got me laying with my back kissing
kissing the floor.
my skin is burning
oh what could this mean.
just another joy ride.
just one more turn to find the meaning in life.
you thief.
that swept me off my feet.
then disappeared before the lights came on,
i never said thank you for
those sweet times
must of took you hours
thinking of how to surprise me
only to leave me with nothing.
guess i should have said
thank you.
but your still a thief
and don’t worry
that surprised me too.
click click
and typing
my heart away
can’t spell
so why try.
why keep fighting
when i know im losing anyway
guess i thought i had a chance.
and look where that got me
genuine.
all that came out of it
was misery
pain is beauty
when written.
and maybe its an escape
just a wrong turn down to
your fickle face.
damn.
look at you.
are you happy with the shit you
put yourself through?
only to tell me it was nothing.
but no, you just can’t speak.
have fun on the merry go rounds
spinning around in your youth
when all you had to do was tell me.
gotta love this game you play.

company
you were
only
until no more.
feelings come easy.
shut up that girl inside me.
10 mins late.
im just one
to trip it all out of place.
shes asks me simply
tell me about you.
silence.
how do sum up something that
isn’t coming to me.
never could think on my feet.
i just am,
and always have been.
you just were,
and never came back.
intrepidly we stand
unwound
in this awareness.
its one bad impression after another
or just everything that could have been.
shut up the clueless
and make room
for the incitement.
into my day dreams
you stay.
but only til greater saves me.

people speak
in the form of noise.
this verse means absolutely nothing to me.
but the words sustain this fallen agony.
dropped the ball
in gracious eyes.
you win.
fools never know when to harness
that god damn mouth.
pencils falling off the tables
clap and roll away from your imagination.
its impossible to sit still
through this mess.
anxious hands
are shaking again.
lying through your teeth
just keep the poison coming
you complete this night for me.
uhh
these people are driving me insane
lets celebrate our sins somewhere
else.
just get them away from my ears
give me the lighter
and lets get the hell out of here
maybe will find a ditch to lay our heads in.
linking hands,
oh how are trouble spirits dance.
we already knew this was a broken life
so lets make the most of it.
just light it up for me.